Amazingly I Am

At this juncture of my life Strange to me completely, all the while When smile could fix things right Where is it hiding tonight? Spoken words at some point of time Resulted into broken heart of mine When a hug could relax my soul Why is it lost in black hole? Over whelming emotions, a part of crime No wonder everything cannot rhyme Its the zigzag life, my love Straighten up before you are last in the line!

It can always be what you felt it could be Life changes in a flash before you could see The uncertainty and being always unpredictable It’s what everyone calls, a fate to be! Struggle with it, fight it or encounter it There are no just rules to play with it You think you are in command, Yet, it’s the fate which controls it! In this battle between mind and soul You may think you have conquered all Until you reach at the end and unravel It’s the fate, invincible as it always was!

Those emotions clubbed with that time Left in her memories now for a long while Locked away in her unconscious mind Nothing left to recollect, all grey and white Life had suddenly changed in a blink Giving her no time and space to think Roles had changed, responsibilities too many Change was inevitable without spending a penny Adjustments were required, no hassle Inside her heart, she felt like an empty castle Yet, she was bit relaxed looking at that man The face of her future, holding her hand Struggling to settle in her new phase Trying to solve the impossible maze Being careful with every move But still she needed to improve To balance her mind and heart With a smile from the very start Oh! She tumbled again and again Wondering to board which plane That will take her to the peaceful place Where trust and acceptance will grace Where her man will trust her blindly And their love will grow at a faster pace In her search for that...

A split of a second How important could it be? A small blink of the eye And world can change suddenly This miniscule moment of life When everything seems allright A small beat of your heart And feelings can change suddenly One decision, taken One step forward The spoken words, heard And thoughts can change suddenly     Self discovery with time Endlessly trying to recover A small tear falling down And temper can change suddenly Bumpy roads, slower pace Destiny takes turn at its rate Live every second and enjoy And time will fly suddenly

A relentless enemy inside you Unending war with those thoughts An unrelenting rain And it pours all day long Faith is standing on your right Yet the emotions are burning Caught in this tussle of life Hoping, the patience is building Trust, instincts never lie And embrace it with love Ultimate consequence, destiny Yet a wishful thinking, smile Crossing the heart, truthfully Eternal end, It's a game of time!

With fingers crossed, inventing life Of faith, of trust and of hope In his love, care and warmth Without any soulful cries on my lips I am standing firm on my feet And I wish I could speak my heart Lay before him the eternal path And walk with him to reach the stars I am laughing and my eyes are wet Yet I am not crying, I can tell It's the joy which has captured my heart The fire in my eyes will tell all of that And in this phase of life, I arrived Blissful, with him holding me very tight On less traveled road, I walked ahead With a promise for never to look back!!

A wound that doesn't stop bleeding And your soul watches without feelings You pretend that you are sleeping And your eyes are flooded with tears You apprehend your mind with everything And your results with it are still insignificant You make your lips wanting to speak And there are words no one can hear And a voice is slowly whispered in your ears I am your destiny, anonymous and unknown And this part of life that no one has control You stop pretending and apprehending And keep smiling as you move on!

The crossroads or the crosswords Intersections on every side I stare Landlocked on every move I make Inside this spell you created Of trust, of care, of love, and luck! Down the street and on this road The bond, tightened with a rope Walking with a fear, never to be worn The faith that created world, its born Of trust, of care, of love, and luck! The bright sky or the dark night Hoping with big hope I confide With all the worldly emotions I stride On life's carpet woven very tight Of trust, of care, of love, and luck! With the vision so clear this time I cried with a broad smile On the roof top of heaven in my life And a contract with peace I signed Of trust, of care, of love, and luck! I resigned! 

Rough and bumpy roads of life With all the challenges on my side I am preserving my strength for that day Picking up pebbles to throw away All that the destiny can do this time Wait for me to play my chance to shine Believing that he exists in this universe The remote control is with him to operate Displaying all the cards, I did not manipulate That very luck written with chalk on destiny’s slate And I shall fly in the direction that defines my day With all the goodness that I can assimilate All the lessons learnt and put aside I am here for that moment when I will climb The stairs, leading me to the place I am eyeing That moment will be recorded in the history, I write And nothing else can fill me with all the pride Only that victory, a reason for me to survive

Aaj nahi socha tha maine Sapne mei ya hakikat mei bhi Kya januu kiss raste pe nikal padi Haath pakad ke tera zindagi Rukne ki iccha hai maan mei Inn lehron mei kahin gum ho gai Kaise khud ko bahar nikalun mei Jab samunder se dosti ho gai Dil mei aaj ek kashmakash uthi hai Daar hai kahin mei behak na jaun Khud pe vishwas karne chali hun Kahin khud ko mei bhool na jaun Eh meri zindagi tu sawal na ban jana Jawab dhundhne mei nakam na ho jaun Meri kismat agar saath chod bhi de mera Tu kabhi mujhse naraz na ho jana Yeh mera wada hai aaj iss pal se Abbad rahegi meri duniya iske dum pe Muskurati hui mei chali hun yahan se Haath pakad ke tera zindagi!

While I sit in front of the mirror and see I find a person, I think its similar to me I am not sure if I have seen the image before Yet I am clear that the shadow is not me I stare and stare for long hours I come to a conclusion, not so fast I am me and the mirror seems to show me A picture which is translucent and not clear The shadow is pure although not so free Inner me tells me to strike and breakfree Clutched inside this mirror, trying to release Flush them onto the image which I see Hold it there, I am gonna pinch myself Sing a song to wake up from this dream It is scary to know my shadow exists Yet I am thankful to mirror, to show its me!

The moment of truth is in my eyes Believe me when I say I dint cry Tears couldn't fall, scared from inside On this route, I don't want to ride I am strong, I am sure I can survive Any catastrophe or any high tide Just hold on to me and keep faith Allow me to dream it and create My own world with no space for hate I'll keep these memories alive in there Live life with that smile and no tears Reliving every moment I and you shared To be remembered with every passing year Today I write to bury my words into woods The incomparable time which always felt so true And I'll visit your grave and sit beside you To let it lay inside me without any dues!

When everything seems to be falling Hold on to yourself and don't panic Walk on the stones if its required Consider them pebbles and don't get worried You cannot get more hurt if you stop Be patient but don't loose your hope If life teaches you how to crawl Move on with it and learn to walk One chance is all you ever get Use it to the fullest and never regret Its God's way of saying he loves you Everything he does, its good for you Just keep that smile and shine You'll find urself walking on straight line And that's where you'll never cry Spreading love to all, let your heart fly high!

A fable I heard few moments ago Wondering does it really come of age When people say I am ruled by my rage Do they mean it’s just some hidden tale? Hidden inside heart or mind of human beings Unconscious mind with deep secrets, no claims Come to think of it, I am amazed How can the heart and mind not be same? The princess who wants a charming prince Is she thinking from mind to rule as a queen? Is she ruled by the feelings which may be serene? What drives her to dream and desire? Both are though leading to same end Where is the dispute then? I fail to understand I dream about one thing this moment My mind may want that thing to happen Will it be my mind or heart ruling here? Who is to win is actually a question, Consider! The result is still going to be same Does it matter if means are different and distinct? Why is again the question in my mind Isn't it the same thing in the heart? I am back on the same dilemma at last ...

for all those who have friends they can value and preserve..i have some... for all of them... here it goes... Locked away are the moments so dear I want them to always stay very near They are what defines my past With love, I will secure them in my heart The key to those times is in safe hands It’s that love which stood strong on that sand With time, everything changes for good This bond though will stay intact as it has stood Cheers to the friendship we've had Its very precious, I am sure you know that Wishing time doesn't change it for bad It's the only gem which can be preserved at the end!

A room without a door is the perfect place to live Every bad thing that comes in will have to leave It would be mix of a hell and heaven, I suppose Have you lived in an apartment of love before? How I wish such a place really existed Life would then always be daring No roller coaster rides would have been needed To feel the worldly emotions, spoiling everything Cut out these feelings because they immobilize Make you deaf, blind and impaired Before one realizes the breathing stops To know it’s the end which it doesn’t want Heart gets weaker and mind cannot get stable The eyes can see something but cannot register Do you really want such kind of situation? No, is the literal answer, I trust No one needs to bleed with emotions Be strong because you’ve got no options Hold on to your inner self and don’t muddle Life is short, live in present and cuddle!

I feel blind even though I can perceive the brightness in here Is it the inner me or the day has turned so gloomy? I am looking around to find a familiar face All in vain, there is no sound and no trace I don’t know why I am feeling so But not everything can be said in words Sometimes the heart needs to know It’s still beating with full flow The memories are haunting me I guess Should I laugh or cry? I am perplexed Suffocated already, I feel like running Into those arms or just keep on dreaming Don’t want to wake up all alone in the morning The mirror laughs at me when it sees me weeping I guess it’s time which can heal the wound I have Because person who’s gone never comes back I wish I never forget what it used to be This soul needs to just live with it!

How I wish you knew, it wasn't the right thing to do Turning the lights off, it won't help you clean up the flu It may have been a mistake, which could be avoided You can't run away from the past you created If now you want to change, its never too late Just need to keep filling up the fuel in this life's train Four wheels, wheeled together with significant chain Faith, hope, courage and brain Pocket them in your heart and travel The journey will not be as hard as you claim!

I am entrapped inside this maze Can anyone help me to rephrase It’s jumbled and fully crumpled With no sense of vector, life seems dumbbell The time is passing with full speed This moment is important, I believe The decision is tough but to be taken Even if it means that heart is left broken Need a bandage if it will cure The wound is not too deep, I am sure Life is hanging on the fate’s hook I am yet to find its solution in any book I realize; life is like the music I have to choose the genre and pick The sound which sooths the inner soul Helping me to demolish the destiny’s wall Pick me up now, I want to stand straight Look in the eyes of those who hate It surely will help me to recreate The love which is lost in all this haste!